Hi Celtic, maybe that reluctance is to accept positive comments about yourself is a lot more to do with the past than the here and now?? With some of the times you've been feeling yourself dragged back to, where people tried to convince you that no-one (including yourself) would/should be proud of you??
Not to mention the depression you've been feeling which in itself can bring down any self-esteem you have.
But firstly, here's news for you!!!
You ARE in the here and the now AND you should feel SO proud of yourself!!!!
You have a right to feel SO proud of yourself!!!
And "If you only really knew me you wouldn't be."..............now you're not going to be telling me you've been telling us virtually nothing but the good stuff about you, hardly anything of the stuff you see as "bad" about you, hardly anything of your struggles, hardly anything of...........are you???!!!!!
I know you won't have told us everything, but I'd say you've definitely told us enough to show that you should be proud of yourself!!!
And remember that list of your good qualities too!!!!
But if you're still struggling to do proud right now, at least just bear all this in mind on the journey, hey??

Alison