My lack of trust has led to greater and greater social isolation and although my depression makes me crave solitude being alone feeds the depression. So although the lack of trust isn't the cause of the depression it certainly doesn't help me fight it either.

As far as being a vicitm is concerned I do feel the emotional helplessness you describe as though every bad event is personal to me and a deliberately targeted act to make my life worse. However, I am acutely aware that by global standards I have nothing to complain about, I live in a safe country with a decent level of comfort. I find it hard to reconcile these conflicting thought processes.