So I spoke a couple or so weeks ago about buying a workbook to use alongside therapy to help me work through my trauma and move forward with life.

It finally arrived from the States today(gee that took longer than they said it would!). So I started reading, through the intro and into the first chapter and already I have had a variety of emotions surfacing. UGH!!

I think I am already feeling a bit overwhelmed, and this book right now is not a good idea. I just feel like it will all be too much. I want to run a mile from this hard stuff. I've made a couple of posts about it in the therapy forum over the last week or so....

It is also quite possible that this reaction is classic avoidance.

I just know that with the anger I had been experiencing, the avoidance of even contemplating a feeling of helplessness....and the associated mess that has ensued with my T.....has me exhausted and overwrought.

I want to cry but can't ask need to get back to spending time with my boy(he wants to beat me again at connect 4)......but I feel a need to hide away, curl in a ball, and be gone from this life.

The thought of making a start with this workbook is just too much!!! A flick through and seeing some of the topics and activities being asked to complete...........scares the crap outta me!