There just feels like there's a lot of pressure…I don't think I can handle never being able to orgasm, especially since he seems to have multiple orgasms per encounter (which I didn't realize was common for guys, but what do I know?). That and I'm the most difficult person to get off that he's been with. Also, I thought my problem before was that every sexual encounter was either not completely consensual or with someone who was just going to throw me away the next day anyway. So I always just thought if I was ever with someone who was actually nice and stuck around that it would work…but it still doesn't.

And he is patient and understanding, but he's also concerned about his own needs and how my issues might affect them eventually, if I can't work out my anxiety quickly.

I'm also not sure how I'm going to fully enjoy sex if I know going in that it will only get me painfully aroused with no release.