There is nothing for me to gain by telling them. Besides I have heard their stance on mental illness from, "for G-D sakes get over it" to "they use it as an excuse to get away with responsibilities". I do not have the patience to even try to educate and convince them. I will stay in the closet and let them continue thinking I am just a cold, moody, ***** and odd. I can't even imagine what they would say if they new I make myself throw up and under stress self harm. I cringe at their reaction. No way. I am all set with telling anyone. My husband does not even know all the details. How pathetic is that?
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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