Hey thanks for the replies everyone I really appreciate it. To be honest I'm just one big loner. I've lost all of my friends due to not being able to leave my home because I feel too hideous but that's another story. I guess cos I'm so alone and depressed that I don't have passion for anything. I usually just stay in bed all day. I have no life. And it's so hard to connect to people at school, I'm usually very anxious about how people perceive me. I get anxious about people looking at me so I try to stay away from people. I'm not happy I feel very alone and I've never felt like anyone cares about me but really I was just pushing people away that's why I lost my friends... I don't even know what I'm doing anymore, I haven't felt happiness since I was a little girl I feel so empty all the time. I like nutrition but I have such a hard time leaving my home to go to the store because I hate how I look. I actually think if I was pretty I would be happy so I search for different types of plastic surgery...
I've considered medication but never went through with it and I don't know why.
I've talked to people before but I found it didn't help and I went to so many people and got tired of explaining my story... so I just didn't bother to go anymore.
I read about BPD and I'm still confused about it :/ Some symptoms I can relate to.
BadWolf I will try that thank you. He is a safe person and he is older than me he doesn't do risky things usually just hangs out with friends but I still worry like if he's on his way home did he get bashed or die in a car crash or something :/