Hello to start I had a traumatic childhood which caused me to misbehave in elementary school because I don't think I had therapy so I acted out until the 4th grade when a kid beat me up for annoying him for acting like a fool which I didn't know how to deal with because I wasn't raised or taught how to stick up for myself or didn't learn the behavior since it feels my dad wasn't a hostile type always out working and when he was around seems he was just nice a friendly with ppl so I shut down and became the quiet kid. I also irritated adults and my aunts husband (uncle at the time) picked me up by the arms and threw me on the couch and yelled at me when I was a kid since I was annoying, he did cry and was sorry about it but my dad didn't do anything and it was in front of the whole family. My dad wasn't a small guy either very muscular at 6'1 and my uncle was a big guy too about 6'3. If it was me I would've took him out back or dealt with him right there. I notice I have that passive too nice attitude too much and I don't like it so it feels awkward when I get stern with people when they bother me or think about being stern since I didn't have the tough father like figure to look up to and a mom who always would embarrass me when I stood up against kids in high school and put them in their place. Does that anxiety and feelings of being timid and shy at times come from how my parents were??