Skies, could you talk to your T about this?

The times I have felt trapped or forced have made me want to run away more, to the point where my T has to be very, very careful with how she says some things, or I get these intense urges to quit and run away. She actually surprised me a few weeks ago when I had "quit". She basically begged me to show up, and I wouldn't have to talk about anything that was upsetting me. I was so surprised that I agreed. But she later explained that was because she was incredibly worried that I might continue to spiral downward and could end up suicidal. But she definitely stepped outside of what is normal for her, and what normally causes me to want to distance myself.