I think I sorta get this - I told my t not long ago that I wanted to take a break because I felt so emotionally bound to her, almost trapped in a way, she didn't really comment on my feelings but of course said taking a break was fine, although I did some really good work on my own and talked with her about it and now I no longer want to take a break. She has told me in the past, when I've mentioned that I hate being so attached to her, that I am looking for something very deep - I've been trying to figure out exactly what she meant by that and it could be both of two very different things 1) something that I've hidden from myself that we need to dig out and work through and/or 2) emotional intimacy that's close to what I share with her but in my "real life". I think I'm a lifer as far as therapy goes.