Hi, this may seem odd but I'm not sure if I was sexually abused when I was young or not. I used to stay late at my caregivers house because my mom was a teacher and was always later than the other parents. My caregivers husband would come home and we would watch t.v. alone together downstairs. I have only one image of him in my mind, watching t.v. totally innocent. My mom passed away when I was in 3rd grade and I lost almost all of my memory prior to that time. My dad has asked me many times if anything ever happened with that man and I don't know. Though I don't have any bad memories of him, I have always been afraid of men that were his build or who have similar features. I used to be terrified of being intimate because I felt like whoever I was with could over power me and not let me say no. I don't know if all of these things are unrelated but I also feel many feelings that survivors of abuse share. Sometimes I do feel like it truly happened even though I don't have the clear memory.. What do you think?