hey, thanks everyone. i didn't call him today. i'm thinking of calling in a little while.... but i don't know. all the times i have called in the past have been late at night so that he can get back to me sometime the next day. i am feeling sad, but i'm not sure if i really am, or i'm just putting it on so that i have a good reason to call. i think it's a bit of both... a cycle, really. i have been reading the book, picking out the parts i want to tell him about.