I'm the same way. I love having sexual fantasies with fiction character, like crushes. I'd feel safe and find love for it so much, I'm almost in belief that I may be asexual. I never really experienced what it would be like to have 'actual' sex with someone, but I feel I don't care as much anyways. It kind of scares me to want to experience real sex, but when I fantasies about it, I feel more comfortable and safer. It feels real, even when it's not.

What's really cool, that I have experience once, was that I had a dream I was having sex with a fictional character or I'd dream I was their girlfriend or partner. Most of the times it's seldom for me to have dreams in general, but when I do, I always hope I experience that particular dream again. Or else day dreaming of those kind of thoughts and actions are my number one favorite activity.