I guess im in a more difficult place than you cos i dont have friends, partner or real help and support in managing things. I havent found talking, opening up, sharing stuff with others much good to me. I have tried different kinds of sources of help. Im def not weak. I have kept going for long time in spite of my issues. But how much more can i bare. I mean this illness/things dont get better by waiting, hoping for positive things to happen. I have to be the main person to take actions that do good for me. But its challenging motivating, believing and trusting in self and empowering self, having more control over life.