Hi everyone!

I had my session tonight and the rollercoaster begins again. I don't know how to feel right now.

I was telling my T about some doubts I'm having about my husband these days. I mentioned that I had a list of what I think he might be doing (like I did with him awhile ago) and he said 'well, you don't know me like you do this person' so your instinct might be right about my husband(paraphrasing here).

Then vintage me said 'I know enough about you'. Meaning I know enough to know I like my T. Leave it to me to focus on him rather than my husband...and this was not relevant to the discussion!

Our discussion then became what I think, vs what he thinks, vs what I think about whether or not I know my T. I even went so far to say that he's not the only one trained in human behavior and I know I like him...

He explained that what he meant was I don't know what he is like outside of the session or anything about who he is'(rub it in some more why doesn't he? ).

I then said I think of him as a good friend (he told me to think of him this way) and usually I know more about my friends than I do him. He mentioned the word 'boundary' again and I told him if he says that one more time...I'll implode.

So can anyone here tell me why I had to spend time going off topic with him to argue about whether or not I know him!!!

And now he's booked so I can't see him again until 17 days from today...

It's probably my fault for not scheduling ahead. I don't know how I'll survive this one. I hope this makes sense, if it doesn't holler at me...