For me crying sucks. I did it once in session because I was talking about things I'm very ashamed of. I always cry when revealing my shame.

I really can't cry anymore, not about mental pain, not about physical pain. I can blame the meds but honestly I've had a very flat affect since I first got depressed, over a year ago.

I tell T the only emotion I still feel physically is raging anger. I notice with my mind if I'm annoyed/pleased/amused/bored but it's a fleeting thought. The anger is a boiling over breath heaving hand shaking face red and loud voice, everything else is an expressionless mask.

She wants me to feel the hurt and sadness under the anger, but I can't manage to do it yet.

Crying doesn't connect to my pain, it connects to my shame, and I wallow in that enough already. I even asked T if crying was a prerequisite for sessions, because I would have to excuse myself!

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