Today was my baby shower and it felt good i had fun but i noticed that the momwent i stopped doing things is where my mind takes over and i didnt want it toruin the baby shower i hadto move around literally til my body felt as though i was about to collapse now that i am back at home in my room in the bed where i spend more than half of my day everything is just catching up from the last couple of hours tryingto ignore this is the first time in a month i was able to really smile for a long time but now my smile has vanished and my mind begins to drift