Thank you for your post, there was so much in it.

I watched the clip and did find it interesting. I've seen other clips and read studies and talked about with my T how the brain of someone who has suffered trauma functions very differently. We have talked about why both of us do not think traditional CBT works for me and for those who have experienced trauma. I agree with you, that using the wise mind techniques and developing that is important.

I also wanted to say, please do not take my expressions of my emotions feelings and distress here as the only thing that is happening for me. I find that experiencing my emotions, not shutting them down and hiding from them and beginning to allow myself to actually feel them is something quite new to me. It was and often still is completely overwhelming. I am sure it is not news to many trauma sufferers, but I was completely shut off from my emotions for most of my life. In as much as if I had an emotion it was sudden, I had no control and then I very quickly shut it off. I also never allowed myself to experience the deep emotional pain that is inside of me. I am still struggling with that....... a lot.

So, it is new for me to express emotions and their impact on me and show this to others......and that is what I think I am doing here, practising expressing what is going on for me. But that is not isolated from the bigger picture of the other thinking I do around them, and with managing them.

I feel so grateful that there is a place that I can come and do this, and get fantastic feedback from those who have been there done that and have more knowledge than I do and are willing to share it with me.

(((((OE))))) I can not thank you enough for your kind willingness to share your knowledge with me, and others. It is so wonderful to read your insights.