DePressMe,
In your first post in this thread I agree with you, and admire your personal achievments as well as academics.
I had just "hit" reply and failed to read the rest of this thread, I'm sorry to hear you aren't feeling well.
If you haven't already, please contact your pdoc, and tell him or her, what's happening, with help you can get through this. Always feel free to come here anytime and talk to us, you can PM me too, if you want to talk.
Please take care,
DE

((((((((((( DePressMe ))))))))))