thank you all for your replies and advice. I've been thinking some more about all this, and yes, some of the really deep issues have been spoken about recently. It took me a year to disclose anything at all to her, so the whole process has been very much a struggle, although in some ways a relief. Disclosing anything at all is so incredibly hard for me and I find I can't look her in the eye for the whole session. In some ways, I feel like I've let myself down now that I have no longer kept the secrets to myself. She lives in the same town and I'm terrified that I will bump into some day. It feels awful that somebody else knows my darkest and inner most secrets! I just feel like running away from the whole therapy thing, although I know that probably isnt the right thing to do. I feel like I cant do it any more, but I cant do without it either ! I do journal a lot and I have shared some of this with t on occasion. I just feel so churned up about all this and really don't know what to do for the best any more. Do you think I should try taking a break for a while and go back in a few months....I don't know. Thanks again everybody.....