I think she is a really genuine T and I like her for this. I appreciate that she does care about me feeling well and about letting me go one day, instead of maybe keeping me there if I no longer will need constant therapy, no matter if she won't get paid by me anymore (or less frequently). I want it to be like this too, because it shows it is for me - but it is not the place I am in now.

She was also open to discuss it and take it back. But now she said it I feel that she will be waiting anyway. I can't help feeling pressured to feel better now. Sigh.
I am trying to write down a letter about how I feel.