It is really hard. I've been fighting urges for 2 days now. l distract myself for a while then they come back. It's like feeding a parasite though, the more you feed it by SI the bigger and more powerful it grows. You need to starve it to get rid of it, to not give in to its requests for SI. The longer you resist, eventually it will become easier to resist. Can you just notice how you are feeling? Where do you notice the urges? What do they feel like? Do you notice them everywhere in your body? Just certain places? Keep safe. Soup.