I used to shake hands with my T at the beginning of treatment, after disclosing my csa I stopped doing that, now I think I was (am) afraid of being rejected or that my T wouldn't want to touch my hand anymore (she's the only one knowing about that). Last month I was struggling with emotions in session and when I burst into tears she hugged me for some minutes and I really didn't expect it, hadn't asked for that. I froze at first but I saw she really didn't mind touching me so she wasn't probably disgusted and I relaxed. I don't tend to hug people usually but as JunkDNA wrote she showed me that hugs/touch aren't necessarily dangerous and don't include abuse. I ended up with a feeling of warmth and love. It was the most healing session I guess. I regretted that session the other day when she talked about distancing sessions as I had never let myself be so vulnerable before and I felt rejected and am still trying to find the courage to talk about that. But rationally I know she didn't mean to get rid of me (I hope so).