It helped me to understand that my parts were created by me to protect me. I haven't found any interjects yet. I do have parts that would hurt me but that was more copycat behavior. Treating me like my mother did by hitting me or degrading me. Because of therapy I learned to talk with my parts, accept that I have parts and now try to understand what they need so they can integrate. I have three groups of parts and they don't seem to know what each other says, or does. Some still don't know they are parts. (it scares me to admit that) But we have managed to hold down a job for over 20 years, raise a child, and fit into the world when we need to. What most of want from therapy is to be able to remember the trauma, grieve the physical and emotional pain of the trauma, and experience the rest of our life with emotion. We all want to feel our life, what it is to live. I didn't start seeing a therapist until I was in my late forties. I was having massive panic attacks. A small amont of zanax and a small amount of zoloft helped with my overwhelming panic attacks and compulsive thinking. Once that was quelled I was able to participate in my therapy. It was a lot to take in at first, but so far so good. I am glad you have a therapist that understands DID. Thank you for sharing and I wish you well
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