I'm sorry you're having feelings of abandonment and surprise about this. But is it really so hard to understand why she's talking about termination? You've been telling her you're okay, smiling, pretending to be strong. Why wouldn't she think you're ready for termination? You stopped working in therapy, acting all happy and okay.

It's time for you to 'fess up and tell your therapist the truth and stop all this bullcrap about how well you're doing.

Be honest. Maybe it'll be hard. But therapy is the place where we can drop our facade of strength and pretending that everything is okay. It's really disrespectful and self-sabotaging to lie to our therapists and then to expect them to read our minds and act according to what we really want. Speaking from personal experience here. It's our job to try to be as honest as we can be ... even when it's hard.

I wish you the best. Please, please, please consider honesty instead of pretending to be okay.