Eh .... Everything sucks in my opinion but ... If it were me and I was in a hell of a storm of symptoms like that I would probably hop on a AP ( Risperdal) if it worked for you before to knock down some of the most powerful and dangerous stuff right off the bat. Im sure they are gonna want you to try a mood stabilizer. I have never been on depakote just never appealed to me or my pdoc . Maybe Lithium low dose for a while? Lamictal is always a possibilty .

Yeah stay away from the booze ! Deer season is coming up anyway you need good aim

Of course I am no Doctor.. and I pretty much despise Big Pharma so maybe I should shut up but seems most everyone needs to dip a toe or 2 in the pool for a while.

Do what you need to bring yourself down enough to remember all the useful helpful coping skills room kick back in gear.

Hows your job going ? Working underground more?