I feel so much better today. It's like a lightbulb figuratively "clicked on" in my head. I feel so much more grateful for the things that I have, and know my situation could be so, so, so much worse. It's like my dad said when I talked to him yesterday... it's all about perspective. When I feel so badly, I need to learn to look at things in a different light. It's extremely hard (like 10,000x harder than it would be for a non-BPD person), but it CAN be done.

For those of you struggling out there today, just know that you are loved. Even though I don't know any of you personally, I still love you. You guys are amazing, strong people who have been through so much and I admire you all. BPD is NOT an easy thing to live with, but it IS possible to live a fulfilling life even through the chaos.

Now to find a free/low-cost therapist and DBT group for myself. I think a refresher on the skills needed would be extremely beneficial to me... even though I'm feeling better and trying to live in the moment now, I do know that it won't last forever.

(((HUGS))) to all.