I identify with feeling like a fraud when so depressed. I'm a teacher and I started the school year depressed and I feel like I was just a shell sittig at the desk all the time, doing easy lessons because I didn't want to deal with much resistance from the kids. One of the kids commented that I never smile, and another (who has known me for three years) commented that I looked so sad all the time and wanted to give me a hug. Yup, I definitely felt like a fraud!

I guess this new pdoc must agree with bipolar because lithium is a bipolar drug. Do you want to be switched to lithium? Is it to try to combat your depression? I've heard that lithium works better for mania than depression. When I was on it I was totally spaced out and flat - didn't feel anything at all.

I hope you feel better soon! I'm starting to feel a little better after months of depression so it is possible!