I feel like I am very slowly starting to come out of the depression. I thought it was going to switch into hypomania on Thursday but it didn't stay. It seems my body has recovered in that I have energy back to do things but my mins hasn't recovered yet. I still have no desire to do anything, which unfortunately is leaving me very restless and bored, giving me thoughts of self harm. I think it gets worse before it gets better.

Of course I was hoping the AD would kick off hypomania but I think the invega will take care of that. And I guess I don't really want that anyway. I can only ever see the roses, not the thorns, and I don't want the thorns. I need to learn to be happy in the middle (assuming I get there).

It's nice not to dread getting up out of bed but I don't quite want to do the things I'm supposed to do either. I feel fragile, like I've just been through something terrible and I'm not yet ready to face the harsh lights of the world - which in a sense is true.

The last time I came out of the depression I never quite made it out of this fragile state so I hope this time I can make it further.

Does anyone else get like this? When coming out of depression (as a result of medication) you just feel tired and beaten down? Like you're standing on new legs?