I dunno.

it never seems to last, any relationship. men or women.

I have never had a bff last more then 10 yrs or so...

after string of boyfriends and casual friends with males, I cannot seem to make it last

4 yrs, bf
15 yrs, bf then husband, then divorced
another 15 yrs, friend, w/bens, both dated, he passed away on me.
and now latest man in my life...6 yrs...I have recently left.

I am never first with a love, and I want someone to care about me before everyone else. I don't know...is that too selfish???

But, alas...I am alone again. destined to be this way.
I am getiing way too old and way too tired to start all over again and again and again

must I re-invent myself again???? geeeesh

and with the computers.....everything has changed.
I feel so all alone out here
I need a friend or 2 to say hi.
Sorry to take your time up.
thanks for reading.