Hope you feel better soon. I think many of us can say we know what you feel when you state you feel like a fake. Many of us have jobs that require a good face. My boos asked me the other day why he has never seen me depressed. He found out about my bi polar through harassment and pushing. I told him I am very good at putting on a face. Little did he know I was extremely depressed the day he said that. I work with people all day and try and hide my mood. I have been called rigid, up tight, and disconnected. If they really knew what was going on in my flipping head they would probably go insane. I feel that way at times. I am sure you are who you are and are good at what you do. I like to think I am. That does not make us fake, makes us strong enough to continue living with this curse. (Sorry if I offend anyone). That is what I feel about bi polar. Rattled on enough. Hope this helps.������