I think it's misplaced anger. There are things that need ironed out in therapy, things that have annoyed me but probably shouldn't cause the intensity of the anger. She can be somewhat parental in terms of setting boundaries and being very caring so maybe that's some of it. I don't do well with therapists setting boundaries, particularly if I don't agree with them.I think I'm struggling with the power imbalance and with giving up control and letting her do her job. These are all flashpoints for me and they're all coming up, I feel genuine panic when she takes control of certain areas in a parental way, and even tho it might me for my own good, it sparks panic and I want to kick against it. It feels like I've experienced this same panic in my past but I can't remember any exact instances.

I just feel very rebellious and oppositional right now. I push her away from me yet miss feeling close to her. It's like I'm chasing my own tail.