Lunatic Soul, I'm sorry that you've had unpleasant sexual encounters. It doesn't mean you'll never be able to enjoy sex, it just means that right now you're not ready because of your wild infatuation with your former T.

I agree with Christina.

It's time to get a female therapist to process your impossible love for your former T and to talk about how to go about having a healthy sex life. You'll be much better off discussing that with a woman.

I wish you the best and I'm sorry you're having such a hard time letting go of your former T.