I just feel very rebellious and oppositional right now. I push her away from me yet miss feeling close to her. It's like I'm chasing my own tail.[/QUOTE]

I felt rebellious the last few weeks and have no idea why. I keep telling my T that I hate that she matters to me. She keeps saying "try not to hate me too much". I say "but I would never hate you" and she'll say "but that's the opposite". I too feel I'm all over the place.