So.....I go to therapy twice a week, and tomorrow is another visit..... I've decided I need to try to let that barrier down she feels is there. It's slowly been coming down, but goes up again, down, then up.... I trust her, I guess I'm just not used to having someone there to just listen to me...JUST me. And want to hear what I have to say.

So after the last two sessions, (which I've mentioned in this post), I think I am going to do my very best to just be open, honest...and ready to talk. Otherwise, it's just a waste of time. Will just the will of wanting to be like this work? We shall find out.......I've been mentally preparing myself all weekend.