despite the lighthearted title my depression is returning ,no triggers just the old' if i had a job i,d be ok, ' last week i felt ok this damn obsession with returning to work is my sticking point i feel anxiety is mixed in,i do the old black/white thinking bit ,what if i do go back and i get ill ?,the thought of work makes me ill, i set in motion ,i'll not get work,and even if i got work what would happen if i get ill.some folk say forget work as i have got a recurrnt illness others say the opposite trouble is i don't know which one is right i am like a ship lost at sea,i have had therapy about this,took medication on and off but so far not got a resolution,at times i feel this will destroy me as i get so tired of the constant 'i'd be ok if i had a job',am i just plain barmy? and should i make friends with my constant inner chatter? help!!