Ok I have researched flashbacks but mine seems to be at least 2000 times worse. When I am having this experience what happens is that I feel great amounts of shame and guilt. I feel like people are looking at me and I don't want that. I just want to go home and hide. If people look at me my eyes give me away I either look away or do something that makes people sense there is something wrong and things get really awkward and sometimes tense.

Nothing works on these experiences, no grounding technique, panic reducing exercises, breathing exercises. Once I am inside the flashback(or whatever it is) I am in and NOTHING can make it any better until I get home. When I get home I get under the blankets and I feel like God is aware of my thoughts and what I am going through and I feel terrified and ashamed. Sometimes I feel my parents, my psychiatrist are also aware of my thoughts and feel they can sense what I am going through and know it and I feel ashamed and guilty and all sorts of bad. I feel they can see me. I get under the blanket and eventually it gets better. Sometimes my breathing becomes very heavy and I feel like I am going to die but that doesn't happen all the time just once in a while. Btw the reason I feel my parents and the psychiatrist are aware of my thoughts is because I told them a few things a few times very deeply personal and sensitive which they didn't receive well and these flashbacks happened after those incidents.

These happen mostly in public but can rarely happen at home as well. I have them 4-5 times a month but I remember days when I have several a day. These have completely disabled me and I can't work, go to school or do anything. Every second I am outside I am aware and thinking is it going to come now, now or now and I am consumed by it.

So are these flashbacks and is this ptsd?