Couldn't manage the energy to get on yesterday.

Started with a new T, and the intake interview, going back over all that's wrong, took a lot out of me.

Also can see a pattern in recent posts -- feeling energized, worried about being "manic" -- feeling a lot of excitemely about new ideas -- but not following through with much positive action (then, how much can I realisitcally get done if a spurt of energy lasts a few days, then the lupus and depression fatigue sets in?)

-- a few things happen that start to "trigger" unhappiness, self-doubt, low-self-esteem -- perhaps some are fantasies ("I feel isolated) and reminders that maybe I haven't taken actions that woulda helped (Did you PM anyone? Go into chat room?: A few efforts, but mostly no)

The little things become bigger -- I feel overwhelmed -- and plop, here I am back in a fullblown depressive episode.

Well, I'm going to follow through on a couple things today, even though my "heart's not in it.'

Thank you for the wonderful, huge, heart-warming response to "Feeling Isolated" as I started the downward slide. Will be back on line later tonight. Hope I run into some of you night owls -- maybe even chat -- or get around to some PMs.

Thank you so much for the love and comfort and tips about how to reach now.