I am feeling so badly for how I treat my husband. I am going through a bad patch of something and I don't hide it at home. At work I am kept busy and actually do have fun and feel mentally great, but I seem to only be able to have those few good hours a day. Outside work it is just too much work.

How is it that at work I am fine? I have even been picking up extra shifts at work (I wait tables) because I know at work I am safe from my feelings. Maybe bc we are so busy and everything is at surface level?

Got off work yesterday after an 8 hour shift and was feeling good. Watched tv, ate pizza, and had a few beers with my husband. After a few hours I was done- I needed to crawl into bed. It's like I am an hourglass and when the sand runs out I am done for.