There is a big debate I feel Hooligan around personality, temperament and affective spectrums which the profession itself cannot seem to agree on. I have strong borderline features but I also have these blissful states I have never been able to explain before and now feel I have an answer. According to borderline diagnosis elation or bliss rarely comes into the equation. Hence me probably receiving differential diagnosis.

Really empathy for the separation from you biological mother in your early years. Most people cannot understand the devastation one feels when that happens.