***CSA TRIGGER***

Right now with my work I am force to deal with a registered child sex offender. He has also touched the breasts of staff members (not mind thankfully). There are so many parts of his story that just sets me off. One being that one of his child victims was a family member of his girlfriend. His girlfriend chooses to stay in the relationship with him. I am so nervous about going back to work (I was out sick friday and have the weekends and Mondays off). I had an appointment with T this morning and we talked about this a lot. I felt like I should suck it up and put up my wall rather than allow it to get to me. T on the other hand thinks tomorrow will be extremely difficult for me and that I should email her throughout the day if I need to and she will help me through. However, I almost wish she had told me to put my wall up and disassociate from the whole thing. I am not sure why but sometimes her compassion is opposite what I think I need.

BTW...I know I should get a new job as hubby tells me all the time it is too much for me. However, I love my job and while I sometimes have to deal with people that are difficult for me I can get through it and the good outweigh the bad.