I am an introverted, sensitive person. There are times when I really do not like being like that. I feel like lately I have some people who do or say things that make me feel down. It may not be a big deal to others, but it is to me.

I got an message from my friend this morning who is halfway across the country saying, "here you are on vacation with no firm plan on how best to enjoy it". I took that as him giving me a lecture. Very often, he would point out very critical things like that. He's the only friend that I have, so I put up with it.

And the other night there were three gay men that came to the pool area after I had been in for a while. I have nothing against the way they are. But what I really didn't like was that they had seemed to imply that they feel sorry for me because I'm alone. They were telling me how wonderful life is in having each other.

Incidentally, I just had planned to just take it easy today. It's been almost a whole year since I had a week off. One good reason why I planned for my week off now was because I knew that my friend would be gone for part of the week and I wanted a little time to myself. I do have plans for tomorrow and the rest of the week.

I feel like that's the main cause of my depression. That I feel lonely, and when I come across people, all they do is say things that are hurtful.