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Originally Posted by hannabee
If you want any chance with this woman I would suggest you back off immediately, sit down and write her a coherent letter explaining as much as you can about the reasons you acted as you did, ask for her forgiveness and if she would be willing to talk with you in, say a month or so, after you have been on meds and had some therapy.
That, IMHO is the only hope you have at this point. Good luck.
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Thanks for the suggestion. That's what I'm going to do, leave her alone until she says otherwise. It hurts so bad, and everything I do reminds me of her, every song I hear, every road I go down, every food I see. I'm excited because of what I heard meds and therapy can do but at the current it's hard to stay focused on the good. But no matter what I want to be better. I just hope somehow she can understand my condition and see hope for us. I appreciate everyone's help it's been hard to admit I have this while I've killed our relationship. I'm slightly thankful for what has happened because unfortunately I don't know if I would've seen what I have, much less wanted to change it. But I wake up with the guilt of how she's feeling and what she's felt. I'm gnna do my best to take this time and really focus on myself and what I need to do to make myself better. I just feel like it would be easier with her beside me, although I know Im the one responsible for where we're both currently at