Mowtown, what you have been doing that is "right" for you, is you have been keeping "in touch" with your body while you have been working through all of this. "Healing" involves addressing the "hurts" but also continuing to be "in the now" and we do that best by keeping on touch with ourselves physically too.

Understanding what is going on in your brain and how to gain on this challenge gradually is important. It's about doing your best to keep one's self in the now "while" working through whatever in one's past has caused the confusion that is PTSD.

You need to continue understanding what to finally throw away that others have handed out to you to absorb emotionally. You need to gain your own personal strength in finally realizing what you no longer have to absorb and that when others present you with comments that are disrespectful, you get so you see "them" as the ones with the problem, which is really what you have been discribing. You need to come to a realization that what they are continuing to do is show you what they really don't "know" Mowtown. You need to think about what you would tell a person in your shoes that would help that person "overcome" people like your other family members. You have to come to the "now" with your entire mind and realize that these other individuals are simply no longer allowed to have power over you anymore. It is building your mind in a much healthier way and you have "known" a lot more for a long time, you can't "make" other people step up to an understanding, people often will simply fail to do that, their loss, should not be yours.

OE