I saw a really nice pdoc today, who prescribed me an ssri. She didn't diagnose me or anything yet, but said this would probably help my symptoms.

I am, however, really afraid of weight gain if I take this drug. I'm in recovery from a pretty serious eating disorder, I have not been sick with it for many years. I don't want to trigger any weight issues again by having an unnaturally increased appetite and getting big. I cannot afford to relapse.

I feel embarrassed at the thought of bringing this up with my therapist, which is usually a glaring sign that I should talk about it. But I am juggling a lot at the moment, and I don't feel able to open another festering can of worms. I feel like, I have a really healthy attitude towards actual food - I eat with gusto when I feel hunger, quit when I don't and don't really think about it apart from that. But if I start talking about food, I will start getting obsessive again. My therapist has a lot of experience in eating disorders, but for me it's not the way forward. Except now I'm really uneasy about these new pills, and feel I need to talk about that aspect.

Has anyone talked about weight gain in their therapy?