Just stop. Yes stop everything You and your husband need to write all these things down on 3x5 cards ..each issue gets a card .. lay them on the floor and pick them up in order of priority. Between you and your husband just start taking care of problem and situation one by one.

As already pointed out .. Your son can and will indeed live with out Disney this year.. Its a huge expense and its not a priority.

Getting Miguel in school is what matters.

Money that has already been spent you cant take back so move forward, no point beating yourself up. Btw your sister can open her gift anytime not just in front of family... noone needs to know what you got her.

You dont hate your husband and certainly you dont hate your son. You are overwhelmed not only with all you need to do stuff but from the entire summer you spend all over the country.

You hate the thought of an IP trip , I know this. But dont you think you would be able to handle ALL this better if you were more stable ?? Plus it would be a way to get medical coverage asap. Get on your meds the right way for a while, you need more than "prn's" right now, So swallow all your reservations and worries of weight gain and pull yourself together so your better centered to get things down.

Your living in my old town , trust me its not that bad. There are good hospitals there.

Have you gone to the beach yet at sunset? Just sit there and watched the sun set? You should, will cost you a couple bucks for parking but its soothing.. That is really the only thing I miss about living down there..

Seriously