I basically blacked out for two weeks. Not really eating, barely sleeping, maybe a total of two hours a night. I was functional to some degree, but apparently people were very concerned. There were conversations I had only imagined. I couldn't tell the difference between what I had said and only thought. Il couldn't tell between dreams and reality. I would get very upset because i thought someone had used my bank card and obsessively checked it or thought someone was supposed to meet me somewhere and didn't show. I just knew I felt severely depressed and was trying to hide it. People told me that I was acting agressively after the fact, but i have no idea what they are talking about. The best way I can describe it after ending up in the ER is that my brain felt shattered. It took me awhile to get back to some degree of "normal" though I never really completely recovered and I am scared everyday it will happen again. The worst part was when my best friend since highschool later told me she could tell something was going on, but was in a place where she had to deal with her own problems and essentially couldn't take me on. It ruined our friendship. We are still friends, but I will never trust her or reach out if I end up in a bad place.