Hey everyone,
It has been a while since I have been here last, but I have recently been dealing with a very severe episode lately, and I feel that if I don't tell my parents, something might happen that I really don't want to.
Let me give a little background info first. I am currently a Junior in highschool. I have been dealing with undiagnosed depression for 4 years now. Nobody besides 1 other person knows this, as I am one of those people who hides their problems with a mask of happiness. My depression was brought on by the bullying I went through in middle school. I was the nerdy kid with glasses nobody wants to hang out with.
Those experiences still haunt me to this day, as what I presume as the cause of the onset of my depression. Recently it has gotten really bad due to everyone being asked to homecoming, and I am just here, have nobody to ask, and so I see all this stuff everywhere about "Come to homecoming, ask out a date, be cool" all over the school. I have never had a girlfriend due to my depression and hyperactive mind, where I always bash and tear myself down to the point where I say "Eff it, I'm not good enough anyways" and just let it drop. I have let it happen 4 times where I just let relationships drop.
It is not a fear of commitment, but rather a feeling of being unsubstantial.

Starting yesterday, when I was at a party, I just started getting really depressed. I felt like doing nothing, but I just put on my happy mask, and kept on chugging along. Today I have been the most exhausted I have been in a long time, lack of motivation, overall unhappiness along with other, darker feelings/impulses.

I think it is time to come out, but how should I do it that people are understanding of it?