it took me a long time to admit I was bipolar too...I had to reach a bottom as well before I was willing to take meds...it was a long journey...It took a long time to stabilize but now stable a few years I look at the wreck life was all this time and I never want to go back. that keeps me on meds...not for my family or my career or anything else...for myself..i am sick and tired of living that wreck of a life...you have to do it for you to be successful.....welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome