Thanks for everything.

Some days I feel I have been born upside down.

I have so much. I am able to accomplish so much through what I have been born with and been so generously offered over the years.

Yet, I wish to destroy it. For no exceptional reason, except fear.

Fear of what....that is the question... I think the answer is perhaps being human and not having the answer and being unprepared to accept that. If that isn't too much of a riddle in itself!

There are times when I am genuinely embarrassed to admit to how I'm coping as I feel I should be doing better, all things considered etc. Yet I feel angry when anyone says I'm doing well, all things considered...also.

Which was is up?

I'm tired, lots going on around me...therapy is ending or has ended and I'm not very well...although how well I am depends on where therapy is.....

And yes, that is embarrassing to admit to. I should be different from this; if any of this was logically based but it is nowhere near that.