It's taken me a long time to wrap my head around this, but I'm ready to admit I have the following issues and I am trying to fix them:

* I rarely give myself credit for effort
* Most of my self-talk is very critical
* I tend to give up too easily due to pessimistic thinking
* My assertiveness skills are a lot weaker than I thought
* I do have social anxiety and it affects things a lot more than I thought
* I spend way too much time worrying needlessly instead of facing my fears
* All these issues have been around for a long time and some of them have worsened a little
* I accept that I am in fact med resistant and so other treatments have to logically take precedence
* Talk therapy and mindfulness DO work, I have not been consistent enough in applying them

I'm doing the best I know how. It's been a difficult few months with this stuff really sinking in.